The only failure is when you Quit!

I am reading a book called "You are Not What You Weigh," by Lisa Bevere. It is one of the most phenominal books I have ever read. I recommend that everyone read it. She helps you realize that you are not alone in this struggle, but it is your choice whether or not to make a change. I just came off of a 3 day fast. I decided to do this to hear God's voice more clearly and to allow God to show me how to eat right and submit myself completely to Him in this area.
Something we have to realize is, God is not just God in some area's of your life, He is God in every area. He cares about every detail and wants us to allow Him access. You see, I didn't allow God access to this part of my life because I saw it as ugly. I didn't want Him to see such a disgraceful side of me. But not allowing God access only hurt me. The wounds that were locked inside that room weren't healed. Most people think that if you are overweight there is something wrong with you, and they're right. There are wounds that you and I are trying to hide instead of just letting God have it.
In Psalm 139, God says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. So why is it that when we look in the mirror we find it so incredibly hard to say "I Love You"? We have no problem saying it to our family and friends, but it seems impossible to say it to ourselves and acctually mean it. Every person is made in God's image, so how dare we say to anyone including ourselves that they are ugly??? I'm still walking through this process, but instead of pushing God away from that room and locking the door, I am embracing it.
Today for the first time probably ever, I did 5 miles in the gym. Usually when it starts getting really hard I give up, but I chose to push through the pain and see what I was truly made of. I pictured God saying I could do it, just a little further. God is my biggest encourager! I also heard Jillian Michaels in my head screaming "unless you bleed, puke, or die Keep Moving." lol! Anyways, I have never been so proud after a work out in my life. I proved to myself that the strength is there, I just have to believe in myself and keep pushing. The only failure is when you quit. You can do this!
The process isn't always easy and it may hurt! But it will be sooo worth it in the end! Give yourself a chance. Let God work through the pain and love yourself enough to make a change! My life will be a testimony of God's faithfulness! Thank you for reading. I will continue to write.